Monthly Archives: April 2014

on Depression- day 15 after Defeat

so I have been crying, maybe mildly dying so i have been lost, my heart frozen winter frost stumbling is my walk, stunted my talk giving up on the notion of found, my feet finding no ground say something or … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 14 after Defeat

it seems that a deluded part of me has been waiting for some kind of revelation, dealing with this whole ordeal.  some light is supposed to go off somewhere, and then – ah! release of all the unnecessary despair i’ve … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 13 after Defeat

so two weeks are almost over since my first announcement of: yes i am depressed. recap? sure why not. the first week was a chained storm of emotion, and as the emotions got solidified on to the second week, from dust to … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 11 after Defeat

i’ve spent most the time since my last post in a general numb state.  had the relative ups and downs, but the status quo is mostly in numbness.  so what is it, this numbness i am exercising so vehemently? it … Continue reading

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on Depression- Day 9 after Defeat

so i’m here again. and though i missed yesterday, i made some substantial strides (i think), which i will share in summary.  i met up with my therapist (every wednesday at 1). it was better than good. but my (thoughts?), … Continue reading

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on Depression – day 7 after defeat

Today is now and again bitter.  yesterday the teaching didn’t help as much, neither did the social outlets.  well that’s not fair. they did help a little. beautiful it is when we know our friends love us for who we … Continue reading

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on Depression- Day 6 after defeat

Today is a bit better. This is how it happened: besides my full time job, I also do a number of things part time, freelance, etc. One of which is teaching.  I have a couple of students who i work with … Continue reading

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