so i slept last night. really really slept.
it took me two hours after laying in bed, to decide giving meditation a try. in the last few months i hadn’t been able to sit through a single reiki meditation, without distractions and/or hesitant energy flow. and not that last night was seamless, but definitely smoother and i had a general surrender about me to it… so yeah. after that, i slept. through- the- whole- night. no waking up on the hour, no busy bee brain. none of the faces of insomnia showed themselves to me. i believe the word here is eureka!
yesterday and the day before i also had a minor relapse into ‘depression’, which is fine. i already knew that the moving forwards would have natural set backs, and i was ready to take them on, without being too harsh on myself- this is a process, a journey, a damn good reason, and the best of reminders for the nature of mankind, and the essentials to ‘true’ maturity.
anyhow, as i had been distracted over and over trying to finish this blog (phone calls etc), i’ve now run out of the dedicated time to be here. so i share before i leave, as i had been doing.