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the math of being loved

it’s a funny thing, the math assumed by people for the combination of their emotions, time, and attention. a many people in their ‘giving’ of love, do so with some form of expectation for mutual reciprocity.  This is normal and … Continue reading

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For the Love of Pain

my mind is blank this morning. maybe because i’ve slept a bare 4 hours, or maybe because the night before was such a storm.  either way, i’m finding it hard to figure out what it is I wish to articulate, … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day 18- for the friendships i am in love with.

Awareness it seems is not a common trait among ‘the herd’.  i know it sounds god awful egotistical, but this statement comes with reason and a specific intent.  A little background before i start praising myself. lol.  In the past, which … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day 5 (the basics: physical movement)

This is a fairly new setting.  i’m in Saudi, relaxing in my friend’s apartment, the tv is on (tv as background is an attack on my senses, but i’m trying – no i turned it off).  Tomorrow is my first … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -3 (the change vibrations)

Take Note: the point of rebirth is not that i will redefine all my definitions, shift all my perceptions, or even eradicate any of the above back to zero or none at all.  yeah, some things definitely need to be rewound … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -7 (I fear)

I fear that the fear of failure, will hold me back from trying I fear that the absence of inspiration, will take away my voice I fear that the probabilities accounted, will blind me to the endlessness of possibilities  I fear … Continue reading

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Poem: As I may never hold a Child

This below is a thought that, while connected to the post preceding, is something that i will not say haunted, but rather, possessed me for a long time.  did i every mention my obsession with Death?  if i have, than … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -9 (i had a dream)

I had the most bizarre dream last night. (lets first acknowledge that YES i slept, well enough to have a dream, with only a minor awareness of it not being real, but the emotions certainly were) Anyhow, real quick, as … Continue reading

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on Rebirth, day -10, I am defeat (without a capital D)

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a Poem titled “Urged”

i’ve spent the last few days with paper and pen.  a blessing it is, when the pen knows where to go.   the attached below i actually have no remembrance of the moment, or even exact inspiration.  haha.  i remember … Continue reading

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