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the math of being loved

it’s a funny thing, the math assumed by people for the combination of their emotions, time, and attention. a many people in their ‘giving’ of love, do so with some form of expectation for mutual reciprocity.  This is normal and … Continue reading

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Quitting the Race

ok i started to write, and then a good 500 words in, i deleted it all. i have a propensity towards beating around the bush, and jumping into the inessential, which is simply on the sideline of my problems, instead … Continue reading

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Seeds in hand

the blankness of my mind is hardly complementary to the swirl of emotions that is the rest of my body.  not only do i feel the coldness within tightening my muscles, but there is this acidic like burning that’s drenched my … Continue reading

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my own kind of therapy

Heading back to see my therapist this morning. I look forward to such visits. While conversation with dear and loving friends always (well mostly) has its own magic on the psyche, it must be said that a professional and what … Continue reading

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Silence in Etretat: to feel alive

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on Rebirth: Day 15- Death the liberation and love of life

My mind had been a scatter, just a little, in the past week.  not for lack of organisation or purpose, but a simple period of adjustment to the new as rebirth takes full form.  Like moving into a new house, … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day 4 (routine and things)

i’m a creature of habit, obsessions, fixations, (you know) So, for the past 4/5 months, i’ve had the exact same breakfast every morning. and on days i couldn’t, I would feel like my whole day has shifted sideways uncomfortably.  I can … Continue reading

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