Tag Archives: human
the math of being loved
it’s a funny thing, the math assumed by people for the combination of their emotions, time, and attention. a many people in their ‘giving’ of love, do so with some form of expectation for mutual reciprocity. This is normal and … Continue reading
Quitting the Race
ok i started to write, and then a good 500 words in, i deleted it all. i have a propensity towards beating around the bush, and jumping into the inessential, which is simply on the sideline of my problems, instead … Continue reading
For the Love of Pain
my mind is blank this morning. maybe because i’ve slept a bare 4 hours, or maybe because the night before was such a storm. either way, i’m finding it hard to figure out what it is I wish to articulate, … Continue reading
talking my way to happiness
For the love me, I am every oscillating between emotions high and low, and cannot find that specific release. But it is not the emotions that are the problem, so much as my incapacity to shake them off and let myself … Continue reading
my own kind of therapy
Heading back to see my therapist this morning. I look forward to such visits. While conversation with dear and loving friends always (well mostly) has its own magic on the psyche, it must be said that a professional and what … Continue reading
Insomnia, Depression, Raging Hormones, and all the fun stuff…
It seems that my 6 month period of illness, and all the drugs ingested into body, mind, and soul (chemical, natural, and hormone- some still clashing in my system btw) has created a little monster in me… it seems that all the … Continue reading
I am in love, as I am human being
I think the way Love is defined and conducted is limiting, and defies the very nature of it. Today, we are expected to fall in love with one person, to dedicate our ‘unconditional’, dire, intense, burning, flames of emotions.. to … Continue reading
on Rebirth: Day -7 (I fear)
I fear that the fear of failure, will hold me back from trying I fear that the absence of inspiration, will take away my voice I fear that the probabilities accounted, will blind me to the endlessness of possibilities I fear … Continue reading
a Poem titled “Urged”
i’ve spent the last few days with paper and pen. a blessing it is, when the pen knows where to go. the attached below i actually have no remembrance of the moment, or even exact inspiration. haha. i remember … Continue reading
on Rebirth- day 29 in peace with Defeat
so i slept last night. really really slept. it took me two hours after laying in bed, to decide giving meditation a try. in the last few months i hadn’t been able to sit through a single reiki meditation, without … Continue reading
