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All of a sudden, i’m in France

so all of a sudden, i am in France, and all of a sudden, i’m on holiday, and also all of a sudden, i am at peace; i am in an odd way home, i am, released from all which holds me … Continue reading

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Quitting the Race

ok i started to write, and then a good 500 words in, i deleted it all. i have a propensity towards beating around the bush, and jumping into the inessential, which is simply on the sideline of my problems, instead … Continue reading

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Seeds in hand

the blankness of my mind is hardly complementary to the swirl of emotions that is the rest of my body.  not only do i feel the coldness within tightening my muscles, but there is this acidic like burning that’s drenched my … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day 18- for the friendships i am in love with.

Awareness it seems is not a common trait among ‘the herd’.  i know it sounds god awful egotistical, but this statement comes with reason and a specific intent.  A little background before i start praising myself. lol.  In the past, which … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -5 (nothing to say)

I have nothing interesting to say right now.  i’m here because my mind is muffled, confused, and I am unable to focus at work. I had been determined even not to blog for today until later in the evening, as … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: day -6

I start by saying that I may have overestimated myself? or underestimated the timeline for rebirth?  Things feel like they’re too slow?  Not sure, but I shall continue to go on as I do; plans are meant to change right?   … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 21 in peace with Defeat

wow. 3 weeks. feels like a lifetime.  today was bad, (look at me using ‘bad’, i’d kill my students for it). ok i’ll start from the beginning.  today looked like an emotional massacre. (that’s a bit better).  i couldn’t make … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 20 in peace with Defeat

not much to say, days are going as they do.  my morning routine consists of forcing myself out of bed, and then forcing myself with everything subsequent to that. haha.  its ok really, as i had been explaining to my … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 15 after Defeat

so I have been crying, maybe mildly dying so i have been lost, my heart frozen winter frost stumbling is my walk, stunted my talk giving up on the notion of found, my feet finding no ground say something or … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 11 after Defeat

i’ve spent most the time since my last post in a general numb state.  had the relative ups and downs, but the status quo is mostly in numbness.  so what is it, this numbness i am exercising so vehemently? it … Continue reading

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