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All of a sudden, i’m in France

so all of a sudden, i am in France, and all of a sudden, i’m on holiday, and also all of a sudden, i am at peace; i am in an odd way home, i am, released from all which holds me … Continue reading

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Quitting the Race

ok i started to write, and then a good 500 words in, i deleted it all. i have a propensity towards beating around the bush, and jumping into the inessential, which is simply on the sideline of my problems, instead … Continue reading

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Seeds in hand

the blankness of my mind is hardly complementary to the swirl of emotions that is the rest of my body.  not only do i feel the coldness within tightening my muscles, but there is this acidic like burning that’s drenched my … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day 18- for the friendships i am in love with.

Awareness it seems is not a common trait among ‘the herd’.  i know it sounds god awful egotistical, but this statement comes with reason and a specific intent.  A little background before i start praising myself. lol.  In the past, which … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -5 (nothing to say)

I have nothing interesting to say right now.  i’m here because my mind is muffled, confused, and I am unable to focus at work. I had been determined even not to blog for today until later in the evening, as … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: day -6

I start by saying that I may have overestimated myself? or underestimated the timeline for rebirth?  Things feel like they’re too slow?  Not sure, but I shall continue to go on as I do; plans are meant to change right?   … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 21 in peace with Defeat

wow. 3 weeks. feels like a lifetime.  today was bad, (look at me using ‘bad’, i’d kill my students for it). ok i’ll start from the beginning.  today looked like an emotional massacre. (that’s a bit better).  i couldn’t make … Continue reading

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