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For the Love of Pain

my mind is blank this morning. maybe because i’ve slept a bare 4 hours, or maybe because the night before was such a storm.  either way, i’m finding it hard to figure out what it is I wish to articulate, … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day 4 (routine and things)

i’m a creature of habit, obsessions, fixations, (you know) So, for the past 4/5 months, i’ve had the exact same breakfast every morning. and on days i couldn’t, I would feel like my whole day has shifted sideways uncomfortably.  I can … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 22 in peace with Defeat

i’m bored of depression already.  to be honest in all my life, i have been some kind of lion-heart; and in face of trauma, in my darkest secrets, i have stood fists raised, even if the body behind it was crippled the … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 21 in peace with Defeat

wow. 3 weeks. feels like a lifetime.  today was bad, (look at me using ‘bad’, i’d kill my students for it). ok i’ll start from the beginning.  today looked like an emotional massacre. (that’s a bit better).  i couldn’t make … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 14 after Defeat

it seems that a deluded part of me has been waiting for some kind of revelation, dealing with this whole ordeal.  some light is supposed to go off somewhere, and then – ah! release of all the unnecessary despair i’ve … Continue reading

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on Depression – day 7 after defeat

Today is now and again bitter.  yesterday the teaching didn’t help as much, neither did the social outlets.  well that’s not fair. they did help a little. beautiful it is when we know our friends love us for who we … Continue reading

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Change

(Journal) Change seems to be the theme of late.  And also i think awakening.  An awakening of all the voices inside my head. It is time to recognise all the sides of me which have been until now refused.  like … Continue reading

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