Tag Archives: mind

For the Love of Pain

my mind is blank this morning. maybe because i’ve slept a bare 4 hours, or maybe because the night before was such a storm.  either way, i’m finding it hard to figure out what it is I wish to articulate, … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day 5 (the basics: physical movement)

This is a fairly new setting.  i’m in Saudi, relaxing in my friend’s apartment, the tv is on (tv as background is an attack on my senses, but i’m trying – no i turned it off).  Tomorrow is my first … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -1 (the Steppenwolf and I)

10 years ago (ish), I picked up the novel “the Steppenwolf” by Herman Hesse.  At that time, the book changed my life.  it annihilated and revived within me something of the common and then something of the artist(s) in me.  I … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -3 (the change vibrations)

Take Note: the point of rebirth is not that i will redefine all my definitions, shift all my perceptions, or even eradicate any of the above back to zero or none at all.  yeah, some things definitely need to be rewound … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -7 (I fear)

I fear that the fear of failure, will hold me back from trying I fear that the absence of inspiration, will take away my voice I fear that the probabilities accounted, will blind me to the endlessness of possibilities  I fear … Continue reading

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on Rebirth- day 28 in peace with Defeat

there have been recent “advancements” in my life, but so recent, that it is not yet time to let them make anything out of me, or for me. yes i am the generally careful kind, even if i leap in … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 22 in peace with Defeat

i’m bored of depression already.  to be honest in all my life, i have been some kind of lion-heart; and in face of trauma, in my darkest secrets, i have stood fists raised, even if the body behind it was crippled the … Continue reading

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