Tag Archives: soul

the math of being loved

it’s a funny thing, the math assumed by people for the combination of their emotions, time, and attention. a many people in their ‘giving’ of love, do so with some form of expectation for mutual reciprocity.  This is normal and … Continue reading

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Insomnia, Depression, Raging Hormones, and all the fun stuff…

It seems that my 6 month period of illness, and all the drugs ingested into body, mind, and soul (chemical, natural, and hormone- some still clashing in my system btw) has created a little monster in me… it seems that all the … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day 18- for the friendships i am in love with.

Awareness it seems is not a common trait among ‘the herd’.  i know it sounds god awful egotistical, but this statement comes with reason and a specific intent.  A little background before i start praising myself. lol.  In the past, which … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day 5 (the basics: physical movement)

This is a fairly new setting.  i’m in Saudi, relaxing in my friend’s apartment, the tv is on (tv as background is an attack on my senses, but i’m trying – no i turned it off).  Tomorrow is my first … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day 2 (the basics: senses)

The basics are without a doubt a non-futile discussion.  for example, the senses…  I acknowledge for today my senses as the only thing which define me, by defining to me the world around me (even within).  Where i stand is … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -1 (the Steppenwolf and I)

10 years ago (ish), I picked up the novel “the Steppenwolf” by Herman Hesse.  At that time, the book changed my life.  it annihilated and revived within me something of the common and then something of the artist(s) in me.  I … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -3 (the change vibrations)

Take Note: the point of rebirth is not that i will redefine all my definitions, shift all my perceptions, or even eradicate any of the above back to zero or none at all.  yeah, some things definitely need to be rewound … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -7 (I fear)

I fear that the fear of failure, will hold me back from trying I fear that the absence of inspiration, will take away my voice I fear that the probabilities accounted, will blind me to the endlessness of possibilities  I fear … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -9 (i had a dream)

I had the most bizarre dream last night. (lets first acknowledge that YES i slept, well enough to have a dream, with only a minor awareness of it not being real, but the emotions certainly were) Anyhow, real quick, as … Continue reading

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on Rebirth- day 28 in peace with Defeat

there have been recent “advancements” in my life, but so recent, that it is not yet time to let them make anything out of me, or for me. yes i am the generally careful kind, even if i leap in … Continue reading

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