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on Rebirth: Day -1 (the Steppenwolf and I)

10 years ago (ish), I picked up the novel “the Steppenwolf” by Herman Hesse.  At that time, the book changed my life.  it annihilated and revived within me something of the common and then something of the artist(s) in me.  I … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -5 (nothing to say)

I have nothing interesting to say right now.  i’m here because my mind is muffled, confused, and I am unable to focus at work. I had been determined even not to blog for today until later in the evening, as … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -7 (I fear)

I fear that the fear of failure, will hold me back from trying I fear that the absence of inspiration, will take away my voice I fear that the probabilities accounted, will blind me to the endlessness of possibilities  I fear … Continue reading

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on Rebirth- day 33- I am Defeat

very interesting are my revelations this morning.  Not necessarily on depression, I don’t know where they belong, in what category I can file them.  but interesting and well, substantially paramount.  the thoughts elude me, specially in finding form into word, … Continue reading

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on Rebirth- day 32 in peace with Defeat

i’m nearly somewhere that matters to be at.  there is much going on “upstairs”, and in the “mezzanine”, the “basement” and “kitchen” as well.  does that not sound like too much to be happening all at once? should i not … Continue reading

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on Rebirth- day 30 in peace with Defeat

i am either in intense focus, or far too distracted. it seems the middle ground of my mind is poriferous, and frankly unreliable. why am i saying this? i have no idea, just that for a moment i knew exactly … Continue reading

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on Depression- day 21 in peace with Defeat

wow. 3 weeks. feels like a lifetime.  today was bad, (look at me using ‘bad’, i’d kill my students for it). ok i’ll start from the beginning.  today looked like an emotional massacre. (that’s a bit better).  i couldn’t make … Continue reading

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on Depression- Day 5 after defeat

i’ve decided to document this “Phase”, and to do so here (of course among my journals and poetry).  it has been 5 days since i have fully accepted this term “depression”, as my current state of affairs. I have said … Continue reading

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