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on Rebirth: Day 5 (the basics: physical movement)

This is a fairly new setting.  i’m in Saudi, relaxing in my friend’s apartment, the tv is on (tv as background is an attack on my senses, but i’m trying – no i turned it off).  Tomorrow is my first … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -1 (the Steppenwolf and I)

10 years ago (ish), I picked up the novel “the Steppenwolf” by Herman Hesse.  At that time, the book changed my life.  it annihilated and revived within me something of the common and then something of the artist(s) in me.  I … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -4 (love from the underground)

I was going through my poetry, (just now), to find something……. wow, this entry is boring as hell already.  ok, let me try again. clear that head, rest the heart, sit next to myself, and probe the questions boiling underneath … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -5 (nothing to say)

I have nothing interesting to say right now.  i’m here because my mind is muffled, confused, and I am unable to focus at work. I had been determined even not to blog for today until later in the evening, as … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -7 (I fear)

I fear that the fear of failure, will hold me back from trying I fear that the absence of inspiration, will take away my voice I fear that the probabilities accounted, will blind me to the endlessness of possibilities  I fear … Continue reading

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on Rebirth- day 33- I am Defeat

very interesting are my revelations this morning.  Not necessarily on depression, I don’t know where they belong, in what category I can file them.  but interesting and well, substantially paramount.  the thoughts elude me, specially in finding form into word, … Continue reading

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on Rebirth- day 32 in peace with Defeat

i’m nearly somewhere that matters to be at.  there is much going on “upstairs”, and in the “mezzanine”, the “basement” and “kitchen” as well.  does that not sound like too much to be happening all at once? should i not … Continue reading

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on Rebirth- day 28 in peace with Defeat

there have been recent “advancements” in my life, but so recent, that it is not yet time to let them make anything out of me, or for me. yes i am the generally careful kind, even if i leap in … Continue reading

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on Rebirth- Day 25 in peace with Defeat

so the boredom with depression is well passed, and i’ve had a 3 solid days of “better”.  i believe i’m seeing clearer, and the cloud on my days ahead is mostly shifted.  I think as soon as i realised this concept … Continue reading

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