Tag Archives: faith

talking my way to happiness

For the love me, I am every oscillating between emotions high and low, and cannot find that specific release. But it is not the emotions that are the problem, so much as my incapacity to shake them off and let myself … Continue reading

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I am in love, as I am human being

I think the way Love is defined and conducted is limiting, and defies the very nature of it.  Today, we are expected to fall in love with one person, to dedicate our ‘unconditional’, dire, intense, burning, flames of emotions.. to … Continue reading

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conversations with the Universe

The most astounding conversation went on recently, between myself and the Universe. It started with my realised intent to listen closer, to be more mindful of the signs, of the gestures of love, of how the universe extends itself to me … Continue reading

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about the EGO (in particular Fati’s ego)

I hope you believe me when I say my Ego is cunning, wily, and an ever calculating fox.  Here are some adjectives I would give it, with corresponding explanations of when… 1- Manipulative (by default). Even as a teen, I was … Continue reading

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coincidence by divine design- how my journey within starts

:So She puts on a little music. She looks out the window.  words, if only you found me whenever i came looking for you, this love affair could go by any name. Ah yes… The journey from ‘there’ to here.  While … Continue reading

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Throwback: I knew all along, but only metaphysically,

I will carry on here, as though it follows from the conversation in the prior post…. So after the diagnosis I had desperately desired to not undergo another operation. I was mortified, I cried nonstop. the only thought that enslaved … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -3 (the change vibrations)

Take Note: the point of rebirth is not that i will redefine all my definitions, shift all my perceptions, or even eradicate any of the above back to zero or none at all.  yeah, some things definitely need to be rewound … Continue reading

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on Rebirth: Day -9 (i had a dream)

I had the most bizarre dream last night. (lets first acknowledge that YES i slept, well enough to have a dream, with only a minor awareness of it not being real, but the emotions certainly were) Anyhow, real quick, as … Continue reading

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on Rebirth, day -10, I am defeat (without a capital D)

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on Depression- day 17 in Peace with Defeat

so, shortly after acceptance to defeat took a near full form (or so it feels), things started to look up. i know it may be temporary, short lived euphoria for having reached some answers with my therapist. i also know … Continue reading

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